The Road to Forgiveness
Do feelings really change like the seasons? As we progress into October, the change in colour of the leaves before they fall is proving to be a beautiful fall season. I danced under the sun with the wind blowing in my face. Noticing that I've revisited relationships, picking at the certain aspects of me I choose not to keep. I've been so blessed to meet so many beautiful people in my life and seeing as how it's Thanksgiving tomorrow, I wanted to take the time to honour each and everyone of them. Learning to speak to myself with a gentler voice, understanding that everyone deserves forgiveness, including myself. We all make mistakes, we are all human, our beautiful souls have landed on this earth to have a beautiful human experience. And although some of these lessons have been so difficult to learn, perhaps the only reason why they were so difficult is because I made it so. Too stubborn for my own good, I guess it was better late than never and really... what is late? Learning to love myself has and is still a work in process, but the gentler tone is working. I carry a lot of guilt and shame for the wrong I've done but every time I have ever apologised to the ones I've hurt, they have only ever encouraged me to move on. Slowly... I am letting go of the pieces that no longer serve me, that has also meant that I have had to let go of some people as well. I've left so many pieces of myself in those I've loved that I now need to pour more love into myself. I made a promise to myself today that I want to let go of jealousy and envy, and should I ever feel like that I will address it either on my own or learn to communicate it with the people I love. But here I am, learning to love myself more and more, one day at a time. If my journey somehow resonates with you, know that you are not alone, know that I see you, I hear you and I congratulate you.